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May 21, 2011

Bon.Boyage

Last night was my baby sis, Marlene farewell party. She's going to Johor this Sunday for study. Bidding goodbye is hard, but let's make this one happy and memorable moment between us sis. I'm gonna miss you obnoxious sister. Have a save trip, enjoy yourself when you are in Johor, do not neglect your study, study smart, party smart babe sis.

lots of love,

bella

The.Death.Clock.Will.Remind.You.How.Short.Life.Is

This time I'm not excited with my homecoming. A few hours before returning home, Sunday afternoon I received a bad news from my baby sis she said "our nenek batu kawa just passed away this afternoon due to cancer". Few minutes later I was in psychological shock. The death of a loved one make me extremely sad. I still remember when was the last time we spent together, the way she talk and laugh. Inik is a serious grandmother and a loving grandmother. I love her. She taught me a lot of things. Such as, be a stronger person when bad things happen to you. She went through lots of obstacle in her life, she lost her beloved husband 16 years ago, she suffered with illness and went through operations. But she managed to overcome all the obstacle because she's so strong. But if I'm in her shoes I'm not sure whether I can get through all the situation as stated above. What make me want to burst into tears is when my cousin told me, when they come over to Inik place she always thought my cousin is me. I just want to say rest in peace inik kawa. No more suffering and now I know you happy are with the almighty. You will always remain our my heart. Your wise words will be our guidance and your love will always follow us wherever we go. Your presence will be greatly miss inik kawa.

p/s have faith in god and live life the fullest

with lovel,

bella

Friday.Friday.Friday

Being lame at placebelle. Jumping on my bed and writing blog. This is fun. personal goal #1

It's been a while to say it's been a while

Wasssssupppp! It's been a while to say it's been a while I didn't update my blog. Not that I don't have time to update it, it's due to several reason a)my laptop rosak pulak b)lack of idea c)no inspiration.

I enjoying my 3 weeks holidays in my home-town, Kuching. I'm currently in Kuching and this post is the 1st post I wrote from Kuching. I just finished my final exam and at the same time extremely excited. I not sure when the exam result will come out and don't care about it. I push myself to the limit to get the best out of myself and believe it or not I feel a sense of accomplishment. Good things. Pretty confidence and a little bit scared at the same time. My next personal mission is to perform better and preparing myself for the next move, work work work? YES I'M WORKING soon, the status as a accountant student will be invisible for a while (until next year) I hope I can survive 6 months dealing with working environment. I expect the company will give me an allowance, friendly colleague and willing to guide me.

p/s YES!!! no more assignment, no more doing revision and fake studying, no exam and no quiz for 9 months...scream!!!!!!!!!!!!

big hugs and kiss:

bella

April 27, 2011

Has twitter became your online diary? :) ♥

I don't act strange, it's just that everyone don't get me. Simple.

Wondering!

I should had be studying now, but i just feel like updating my blog. I suddenly got the inspiration and urge to update my blog. Wondering..Should I update? *That was what I thought 10 minutes ago. Before I ended up here writing. Now, I'm lost!!! wadafakk! where is my inspiration?

I just bought CLEO May issue magazine. A MUST READ magazine every month. If I don't buy it my friend Majoree will buy it and as usual I'll borrow the magazine from her to kill my time.

I was flipping through mag. and found interesting question!

"I really hate it when my boyfriend smokes! How do I convince him to quit the habit?"

Boys & Smoke is like a car without petrol. They can't live without each other! The fact is, if the smokers don't smoke in one day they are going crzzy and their brain doesn't function! For smoker, cigarette is like a friend,BBF even! Girls or boys will come and go BUT cigarettes will be there, always, with the smoker, through his sadness, happiness, loneliness, etc. Even at his dying moments. LOL!

Nobody will like a smoker. No girls will like to have a smoker boyfriend unless she smoke. I used to think all the smokers are bad, but the truth is not all smokers are bad. I hate it when my ex-boyfriend smell like tobacco. Not Cool!!! He smoke all the time and sometimes I have to hide his lighter, threaten him if he smoke i'll smoke and throw his cigarette. After several attempts I FAILED! I just told him I don't mind if you smoke, as long as you don't smoke in front of me because I can't stand the smell. Because of love, i accept him and act like I don't care whether he's a smoker and still hoping he can quit smoking. Nobody's perfect.

And I'm wondering again has he seen pictures of smoker's lungs?

p/s dear smoker: DON'T LET THE RELATIONSHIP BETWEEN YOU & CIGARETTE BECOMES A CANCER

April 6, 2011

You

You, Yes, You. I am writing this for you.

I know you are reading this. And I want you to know I am writing this for you. No one else will understand. No one else knows. They think that this is for them. But it's not. I am writing this for you.

I want you to know, life ... it's hard. Everyday can be a challenge. It can be a challenge to get up in the morning. To get yourself out of bed. To put on that SMILE:-).But I want you to know, that smile is what keeps me going some days. You need to remember, even through the tough times, you are amazing. You really are.

You should be happy. You are gorgeous.

I know that the weather might not be perfect.You might have to turn your back to the wind or feel the cold nipping at your nose. But you know what, at least you are there to feel it. At least you can enjoy the sun's warm rays on your face.

You are alive.

Everything will be okay.

InduIban

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