Gossip!

I really don’t know what is wrong with me lately. I am acting strange. I am avoiding those people who are trying to get involved with my personal life, even my own friend. I have a friend, last time, we used to text each other like 24/7 but now when he texted me I ignored him. I admit I am running away from him. Honestly my feeling toward him is ZERO! Empty. If you ask me who is the person I wish I never meet in my life, my answer to your question is HIM. The more I know about him the less I care. He's driving me crazy. Personally, I think there is no chemistry between me and HIM. But I felt guilty cuz I treat HIM this way, what else I can do? I try to save our friendship; I try to find a reason why I am suddenly acting like this. Am I changing?

First stage of friendship as usual we are dying to know each other. We curious! We want to know his/her background, his/her career, his/her lifestyle and so on. Next after we know about “the basic” of that person, we will move on to the next stage which is we try to be a close friend, sadly few month later, it seems like there is no spark in our friendship, no more butterflies in my stomach. Our friendships become pretty boring.

When he talked to me, I replied erm….yeah..ok..hah what? I am indifferent. I started to hang out with other friends. I guess what make me running away from him just because of his attitudes, really annoying. He is TOO MUCH INFORMATION guy. When he talked, he doesn’t know the limit. He’s always bad-mouthing his/her ________ (secret). I hate it when he starts spreading juicy gossip even if it is true or not. Like if the gossip is really true, I don’t care I don’t want to get involved with other people business.

I tell you the truth, it very difficult for me to befriend with people who has this kind of attitude. *sigh* but no matter how much he annoy me I never hate him, I know nobody perfect, I am not perfect, I hope one day I have a courage to tell him if he still want to be my friends he have to change. My final piece of advise is it takes time for a person to develop a new habit. I know because I’ve been there done that. Last time, when I was a teenager, I loved to gossip but now when someone approached me and ask/tell me if I know “hey Bella do you know (someone name) bla bla bla?” I will tell him/her “OoooO” and I will avoid him/her in the first place. Remember, gossip is one awful waste of time, nothing productive is ever achieved as a result of spreading, or listening to gossip. People who spend their time finding fault or gossiping about others, are certainly not the kind of people I wanted to be friend with. I always believe that those who gossip to me may also gossip about me. So what is the moral of the story? If you can’t say anything positive about someone, don’t say anything.

PS: dear readers now do you know what it takes to be bella friend?

Xoxo:bella