Once upon a time, when I saw his name appear on the facebook or YM chat list, I experienced adrenaline running faster than formula one car in my a) body system b) blood system c) left and right brain. My heart race 999 km p/h and I can’t focus on my school work. But that was a year ago. I don’t realize since when “that kind of feeling” suddenly disappeared. I am a tupe of girl who will stop chasing or admiring that guy when I can’t see a future of me & him together forever and ever. So I gave up and always told my self there are plenty of fish in the sea. Maybe the perfect one will come soon. OK! Enough, talking about “that weird strange feeling”! Now i'm a) stop caring b) don’t bother c) I don’t care d) I’m no longer interested towards him. Sometimes when I’m accidentally think of him or someone talked about him my heart still beat fast. But not as fast as formula 1 car maybe as fast as to old truck maximum speeds. I probably has changed or not. Like last night, I just loving or admiring him from distance. I admit sometime I fake my feeling towards him..my brain say no my heart say yes or my heart say no my brain say yes. Done! I’m confused…should stop writing about “him” got something to do. This is supposed to be less than 5 minutes writing blog entry because I don’t have much free time. Actually I’m taking my hiatus from study session.
Love me or hate me, you know I love you
Ces’t bella
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